Glimpses from the Life of Maugoud Abdul Maugoud and Two Postscripts

Maugoud starts off as a college student. He doesnt fit in with his fellow students and is somewhat reserved and quiet. When he finds his own apartment to live in he meets Madeeha and Madeeha's daughter, Zeinab. Maugoud is fascinated by Madeeha and has an affair with her. Meanwhile he agrees to marry Zeinab. Zeinab eventually discovers Maugoud and Madeeha and is so distraught that she commits suicide. When this happens the mother, Madeeha becomes consumed with regret and sadness. She shuns Maugoud, but she kept something that Maugoud wanted, Zeinab's red slippers. Maugoud wants them back and one night he goes to Madeeha's flat to try and get them and they end up struggling and he knocks Madeeha unconscious. The next day she is found dead. Now Maugoud starts to become very fearful and paranoid that he will be suspected and he starts to live in constant fear. He fears social environments, he fears staying in one place too long, and he fears the night because that is when all of his nightmares haunt him. Maugoud takes on a mind set where he thinks that if he is not fearful then he will let himself slip and risk his discovery in the death of his wife and lover. It doesnt seem like he ever really becomes very sad about the deaths of the two women because he is constantly worrying about his freedom and safety. In the end he sits in his little room which has become like a prison of guilt and paranoya, because that is the only place he feels safe from prying eyes and judegement by people. Maugoud starts telling himself that this could be his last moments, I think he is preparing himself for what he knows is his fate, a horrible death. The story teaches that even if a person is not actually convicted of a crime by the justice system, they still can be convicted by their consciounce. Maugoud spends the rest of his life trapped in this circle of guilt and fear because he knows what he did was wrong and that will haunt him always.